(five reasons not to just sit on my bum and eat cake)
As day one of ye ole experiment draws near, I’m dealing with my traditional self-defeating cold feet. Among the voices in my head are ones that say “you’re just going to fail” and especially loud is “most people your age are perfectly happy to come home from their day job and watch TV in the evenings”. So as I get ready to really sink my teeth into this, I challenged myself to come up with five reasons why I can’t be lazy any more.
1. I am not “most people my age.”
Let’s face it. I don’t fit the corporate mold that popped out 90% of the people in my office. While I’m sure it makes them quite content, I cannot find personal fulfillment in the business world. If work and horrible TV sitcoms were all life had to offer, how depressed would I be? Besides, I don’t even like TV that much...and there are only so many bad made for TV movies one can watch. NEXT...
2. I need to rediscover the things that made me fall in love with dance in the first place.
While there have been some wonderful highlights in the past year, in all it was not a growth year in terms of my dance. If anything, the momentum has been in the opposite direction. Too much time spent as teacher, employee, and troupe member have left me frustrated and out of touch with my inspiration, my goals and my voice...in short it has been more work than wonder lately. Don’t get me wrong, I love to teach and I love my troupe members, but I cannot let myself stagnate in the name of maintaining status quo.
3. I know I could be better than I am at present.
But I also know that I will not get there without some effort on my part. Thinking about dancing while working is great, but not going to make me the next Sera Solstice.
4. There are so many things I want to try.
Do I want to perfect triple pirouettes and picturesque aerial drops? Yes Please :)!!
And while I’m at it, I’m going to hold my Jade split as well.... just wait. It is going to be AWESOME.
5. I’m tired of un-tagging myself in photos on Facebook.
I’m not fat by any means, but hand in hand with the lack of dance progress has come a loss of muscle tone. I need to get back into gear and get my abs back.
So when the call of the big comfy couch and LMN become more than I can withstand, I just have to think about the countdown and all I hope to become in the next 12ish months. Fingers crossed...
